Ugh. Sometimes having friends sucks. I dont understand it. I went 6 years of not having real friends, being ditched and bullied, I mean, NO WONDER I HAVE TRUST ISSUES. I also have an opinion and feelings, so why does everyone act so suprised when i snap? Im not playing nice girl anymore. if you piss me off, im not gonna go 'Oh nevermind, its fine, i forgive you uwuwuwuwu.' One of my friends is really sensitive so i try to be kind around her. If we get in a fight i try to stay cool about it, but you know what she does? She writes long letters to herself ranting about me, and Plays victim when i contact her when we are in science class on a google doc. She makes me seem like the bad guy. Most of my other friends are actually super popular, and i know where that story ends because all of my old 'friends' who turned on me are like the kings and queens of my grade. Me myself, am super awkward and dont fit in anywhere.Everyone in my grade gets along pretty good and knows eachother pretty well. All my friends get invited to so many birthday parties, and you know how many parties ive been invited to since ive reached middle school? zilch. I dont give a crap about parties (I would say no anyway) But still, it hurts. Yesterday, one of my friends texted to the group chat "Like, five people asked me if im still alive." I said "why?" and she said "Cuz i haven't texted anyone really." THAT made me mad. I havent texted ANYONE this summer and no one asked me if im ok . But whatever its fine. Sorry guys for making you listen to my salty whining.
I AM NOT TALKING ABOUT ONLINE FRIENDS, I AM TALKING ABOUT IRL FRIENDS. Art by me
