well he responded after all those years... now what do i do i feel awkward talking to him Im not ok.. every second I feel like I'm on the urge of crying. It's hard to stay bottled up. It feels like everyday one wrong move could get me back in where i was before. But at the same time I stay quiet because I don't want [shall not be named] to get hurt.. I know he deserves it, I know I deserve an apology, I know that I shouldn't be putting up with him! I always say "I'm over with him" or "I'm ok" (as if you haven't heard that phrase before).. but I'm still heartbroken. I try to pick up the pieces or my heart and try to make something out of it.. but everytime a small thing happens, my heart just gets shattered all over again. It feels like I'm trapped. It feels like I can never be redeemed. It feels like.. I'm still stuck in that corner.. still be taunted at. I wish I could be stronger but all I know is how to say no. I'm weak. I'm fragile. I feel like slowly going into insanity.... I- I'm sorry. Heh, I feel like I always say sorry for the littlest of things. (is this little) I guess I was just venting? I dunno why you read the whole thing.. It was a waste of time, right? Uhm... I guess you could just help with the texting problem.. idk how you could help with this..
