yall ever wish you can control emotions because you keep messing up everytime and loose friendships and get jealous every time and get mad for no reason and cry like a baby and laugh like a maniac and keep on getting flashbacks and kept thinking that you are cryptid and cant go back to the way you want it before cause you killed happiness to everyone you loved or used to love so now your just a monster that came out of toxic waste cause same here lol idk, just had this thought stuck in my mind for months and i needed to let it out finally ~~~ oh yeah the past also exists it never leaves you do something and it stays there haunting you reminding you there was no good you did back there they call you toxic they call you cryptid they call you a monstrosity but can i help it? can i even change? answer is unknown cause you cant convince people that you became good anymore you're just stuck dug your own grave you already ruined yourself you would think that meeting new people will ignore the pain well as much as its making me move away from the pain the pain never left ~~~ some people might've noticed a pattern in my projects they noticed that my projects are starting to be filled with songs from Nirvana, and more noticeably Kurt Cobain he's not the perfect role model but he inspires me in a way his raw music that just sounds beautiful his screams that makes it sound emotional his songs that each have a meaning as a musician myself, i can inspire that kind of person of how i can express my feelings towards music but, speaking of feelings another reason why I look up to him was his bravery and confidence he was brave enough to stand up to people who are in trouble and was confident of how he presents himself he didnt care what people said about him his music his lyrics his style of clothing his cryptid art that he paints as much as he is an emotional guy who doesnt like criticism, he still likes going his way a man who can actually deal with haters all I do is wonder all I do is look up at the sky where the soul from his deceased body flows and just ask: "Tell me, Mr. Cobain, how do I become strong as you?" it might sound absolutely silly but i like venting to him even though it might be just me talking to myself at least i have someone listening to me somehow ~~~ was gonna do something with more effort with Endless Nameless but i just give up on being mad im wasted
Song: Burn The Rain - Kurt Cobain Link to Song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jvv3NI--9jQ ~~~ i like this version of the song, check it out https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iRPFp0o4N88
