i thought the rain was gone for good - I try to keep my emotional baggage off of Scratch most of the time. It comes through occasionally, like in my first song or in small, seemingly insignificant comments. But I always dismiss it by saying, "I'm fine." Probably the biggest lie most of us have ever told. Truth is, every time I think things are getting better, they suddenly turn for the worse and I don't know how to handle it. I suspect that I'm a "highly sensitive person", which means that I tend to be very emotionally sensitive. In my case, this comes through in lots and lots and LOTS of tears, internalization of the smallest details, overthinking everything, horrible anxiety, and a tendency to be a bit clingy with my friends. Often this will take a serious toll on my mental health, and it's hard to keep it in check. For a very long time I've been too embarrassed and scared to seek help. I was afraid I would let my family down by showing them just how much of a mess I really am, or that they would think I was being dramatic, or label my distress as "hormonal". (I know that my hormones right now are wacky, but I also can tell that there's something more.) However, I was overwhelmed by their support and understanding, and we have agreed that once the issues with the coronavirus have mostly blown over I will start seeing a therapist. - Music, lyrics, and art by me. Sung by me. More songs on the way! None of them are nearly as depressing as this or "Lifeboat", trust me! :') (Well one kinda is but not as much) - I did not play the piano in this one, this is a background track I made in my notation software. Also the quality SUCKS because I had to run this through like 4 different compressors to get it to fit My last song: https://scratch.mit.edu/projects/322848792/ Sending best wishes for all those affected by the coronavirus in any way. Stay safe, exercise social distancing, wash your hands (like, REALLY wash them, not just soap and rinse), and remember to seek support if you need it. <3 #mrweatherman #original #music #periwinklepenguin11 #singing EDIT July 20: Hey so I probably should have mentioned this a while ago, but I've been seeing a therapist (virtually) for nearly two months now. We've mostly been working on solving some sleeping issues I've been having lately, but we're also starting to get to the bottom of a lot of other things. I have a lot of hope that this will help. ALSO I GOT BANGS, SUCKERS WOOOO EDIT 8/17/2020: AMERICANS STAY INSIDE PLEASE JUST SUCK IT UP AND DEAL WITH IT!!! THE LONGER PEOPLE REFUSE TO COOPERATE WITH THE CDC, THE LONGER THE PANDEMIC WILL BE DRAWN OUT, AT LEAST IN OUR NATION! PEOPLE ARE DYING!! Sorry, just had to rant :'> 1/15/21: the storm is back
