How many controlling and mildly abusive friendships will I have to struggle through before I learn my lesson? Will these emotional scars ever fade? Everything feels like It's spinning away. Everything is crumbling down around me. The shards of my past relationships are hitting me as they fall. Cutting up my heart and my soul. Im weak. I'm beaten down. I'm tired of losing. If I close myself in I can't lose anything. I can't hurt anybody. I can't be hurt by anything. I can't be hurt by anyone. I can't be abandoned. I'd be safe here. I don't need a hug, I need to be left alone. Im not able to cope at this point. So many pieces of my heart keep breaking off. I need to stop getting so attached.
