space!
MUSIC: "Porch Swing Days - slower" by Kevin MacLeod the 2010s were... quite a decade for me. probably because i spent half of the only other decade i've experienced being too young to make many memories, but i digress. it was awful. my "i don't care what *normal* people think about me!" mask finally broke less than three years into the decade. i let myself get too deep in Depression Humor internet culture, which only made my mental health worse. and every time i look back at my online childhood as an adult (even if i'm, like, barely an adult), the more i realize that a lot of my online interactions were kind of... not great. (hey kids! do NOT spend all your time arguing online. it's really not worth it.) but it was also great. through the hardships, i got to learn who i am, why i always felt so different from my peers, and how to accept myself. for every person i've met this year who i wish i hadn't, i've crossed paths with a bunch more who i'm grateful to have met. in 2014 i felt like i had no place in the world, and wanted to drop out of high school despite doing fine academically; in 2018 i graduated, moved into my first college dorm room, and finally started to feel like i belonged with the people i surrounded myself with. the 2020s are a mystery. i don't know if i'm ready for them, honestly. but here we are. (and this project ended up more depressing than i intended. whoops.) happy new year!
