One second I'm blinding myself with neon colors, The next I'm drowning myself in neutral colors. But no matter how fast I switch between the extremes It never feels right. It never feels natural. and I'm always bleeding. E V E R Y W H E R E The emotions are so overwhelming that I spill over. And despair is uncontainable. But I keep switching aimlessly. I've given up but I keep going. I'm not gonna die until *they're* there to greet me on the other side. No matter how many times I tell myself that nobody cares, I know *they* do. Both of *them*. So keep going. Sobbing to myself. All alone. Because I don't want to bother *them*. *They* need to focus on themselves now. All three of us have our problems. I'm very familiar with *theirs*. We look out for each other, That's what friends do. But me? I'm always happy. at least, that's what the rest of them see... So I'll endure the turmoil. It's nobody's fault but mine.
