My dad and I are in a big fight right now and well It's hard really hard... I can't really explain it, but that it's REALLY hard on not only me but my siblings too. One of my half sibling (My dad's son) threw himself on the floor crying and yelling 'Noo...' because I didn't come that weekend... I love my half siblings but I didn't want to face my dad... I don't want to hurt my half siblings they are verry young (one of them is 4 and the other is 1) and I love them I just couldn't face my father, or my step mom. Sometimes all that my dad needs to say is sorry, but he's too stubborn to say it. Sometimes I wish that he would say sorry, but if he does then what? What would happen? Even if he says sorry will I go to him on Saturdays and Sundays? Will we ever be a loving family again? Or is it true, Nothing gold can stay? Can anything go back to the way it was? Will it ever be the same as it was, me going on Saturdays and Sundays seeing my half siblings and playing without a thought of worry? I wish it could, I really do... but what if it really can't go back to the way the it was? All I can think about is 'Am I going to my dads next weekend?' or 'What's going to happen to my life? Surely it will change, but for the better or for the worse?' or 'Will my life ever be the same as it was?' and I can't help but think it, in school, at my mom's, even when I'm with my friends. I wish this problem would have an easy solution like 1+1, but other times I wonder 'Is this for the better?' or 'Can I become a better person from this?' or 'Is my dad hiding thing from me or lying to me?' so as you may see I have a situation and it's NOT 1+1.
