yay i have standardized tests starting today i like school tbh but testing is just absolute hell for me don't flag me the word "hell" isn't even a swear word it's a place anyway my grades haven't been too keen this year but it's not because i'm bad at stuff i'm just bad about turning things in I'm currently feeling like I'm dreaming, like I do every other day, which is, like, a huge problem for me. I also had a really depressing dream last night. My parents told me that we had to put our dog down, but a day after that, they told me I was going to be unwound. If you don't know what that means, shame on you. The "Unwind" series is wonderful. Anyway, that pretty much means death. But, also, NOT death. It's very hard to explain. I asked my mom if it was because of my grades, and she only said "Partly." I never figured out what the other reason(s) was/were, but it was still really depressing. The thought that my parents didn't want me to be around anymore, and wanted my body to be split into several pieces to go to other people as replacement parts just shattered me inside. I haven't told my parents yet, and I honestly don't want to. I've been having a lot of sad dreams in the last year and a half or so. I'll make a separate post about them later, but right now, I have work to do. See ya.
