I know you want to leave, and it's good to have breaks. But what I don't understand is why you think people don't care about you. Look at how many followers you have. Thousands of people care about you. But since you turned off your comments, you won't let them help. You're lucky to actually have people who admire you. You don't understand how many people will be upset if you leave. That includes me. I will be sad if you leave. You also keep putting yourself down. You aren't the problem. You probably want to be left alone, but think how much better you'll feel if you let people help you.
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