i've been inactive!!! :O but why...? *grabs magnifying glass* time to find out. 1. School School sucks up a lot of my time and because my moms a teacher we can't leave till 3:30 at the earliest. On Tuesdays and Wednesdays there are volleyball games and my mom will be helping with after-school on certain days too. Since school is an hour away (with traffic) from our house we don't get home till 4:30 on the best days. I also have homework and I help my little siblings with theirs sometimes. Then I have chores! Our dishwasher broke so we have to wash everything by hand. At the end of the day it's late and I wouldn't have much time to work on stuff anyways, so due to my super power of procrastination a lot of the days I "take a break". I mean it helps because school is stressful but I don't get much time to draw or animate then. Sorry to all the people I owe MAP parts to! I'm trying to get them finished but I don't want to rush them because they'd turn out awful. I'm sure a lot of people can relate to that so I hope you understand why I'm taking so long on those. 2. Sleep It's much easier to get away with watching videos on my phone than animating with my laptop at night, and I shouldn't even be doing either of those! I've always had trouble sleeping and it seems to be getting better the last few days but it comes and goes so sleep's not guaranteed. Add in my anxiety and other stuff and this insomniac's day is pretty rough. 3. Laziness Yep. My personality is 50% laziness and procrastination. The excuses "Not right now," and "I'm 'busy'," fly around in my head 24/7. To reach my current goals I have things I need/want to focus on and Scratch isn't one of them. I am still drawing but it's been a lot of traditional stuff which I find a pain to upload unless it's in a big art dump. I'm not saying I don't care about you guys but I really wanna reach out beyond Scratch. I'm trying to revive my YouTube channel and trying to upload high quality art on my DeviantArt. Spending lots of time here isn't going to help me much. I'm rather ambitious. That very much contrasts with my unmotivated mindset but it's true. I know I'm young and I should enjoy my childhood, which ties into my procrastination/breaks, but animation and art is something I love to do. I wish I had more time for it. I'm trying my best in school and I wanna try and get ahead as much as I can; possibly even skip a grade so I can go off and study art and animation sooner. Haha so there were my excuses! Hope you understand! I live in the middle of nowhere so that is also a factor but once Irma decides to shove off we might possibly move in a few weeks! I thought we weren't gonna be able to move for another half-year but my dad got lucky and found an awesome job! With a bigger house closer to school I'll not only have more time but hopefully my mental state will improve! I'm quite the introvert so being stuck in a tiny house with 5 people and having just returned from school destroys my introvert social energy meter! So moving will be AMAZING! Let's all pray Irma goes easy on us! If it gets bad or school closes we'll be heading NW to be safe. Tonight will decide a lot about the direction of Irma so I can only hope and pray it turns out well! Anyways, have a good day y'all! I love you guys! Stay safe! <3 <3 <3
