i just know you've all been dying to hear me talk for almost half an hour about stupid stuff ;) sorry that i seem out of breath and distant the whole time. anxiety and stress n stuff. it's sort of weird because i've gotten mostly past the worse of my anxiety because school is ending but i still have anxiety attacks for no reason and they really leave me in bad states. had one about an hour ago :< like i stated in the project. i've been feeling ambitious again, but i still feel pretty bad emotionally and mentally. when causes some complications because i feel so mentally worn out from feeling so stressed and anxious and depressed for almost a whole year. but i'm sure i'll get better! it's just hard to do things when sometimes even breathing is difficult. also my sleeping habits have been getting worse so i'm tired a lot which also doesn't help me mentally. if you don't have anxiety/other stuff you might not get it, but imagine being terrified of sleeping because you know that if you do the next day will seem to come by sooner and being terrified of being awake and letting your mind run on and on and on. and then imagine that happening to you everyday. its... not fun. especially on sundays... so yeah i'm really tired and even though i only have two days of school left on Tuesday and Wednesday i still have the thought process and habit of not falling asleep and being scared of taking sleep medicine... now that i think about it i should probably tell my psychiatrist about this... and probably go to bed because it's like 10 pm... :< well good night everybody! hope my voice isn't too annoying or stuffy or something.
