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hey. this is my first time making a vent, but i've found that it's better to vent to people on the internet that i don't know than to vent to close friends or my mother. here we go. i've been having a recurring nightmare and every single time i have it, i manage to make myself look like a terrible idiot in front of a crowd. always, they notice and when they turn around to watch me, they are all the faces of my closest friends and family, even my teachers sometimes. then they all laugh and mock me, and then i wake up. this has been happening for at least 2 weeks, the same dream almost every night. today in school, i got a piece of homework back from my teacher saying "you didn't engage in the writing process, i want you to do this again," or something pretty much like that. i feel like even though i put a lot of effort into that, it wasn't enough, and that whenever i put in effort it's not enough to get by. yesterday, i was playing with some friends when i literally flipped around on a bar that i was sitting on, and hit my head on a metal pole and the stone floor. everybody was laughing a lot, and i tried to laugh it off too, but i just really wanted to go and die in a corner. i have this terrible thing that whenever somebody is angry with me or i embarrass myself and everybody laughs, i just have a uncontrollable urge to cry, even though i know and everybody else is always telling me that crying won't help. i have a music exam coming up in a week, and i'm really stressed for it, too. just another thing to add to my anxiety and stress. yay.
all art by me if that wasn't obvious i honestly don't care if you steal it.
