I don’t feel happy anymore, what brings me joy? Watching YouTube? No, it’s just a way to waste time. Does scratch bring me joy? No, I’m overworking myself and this isn’t some stupid “womp womp” situation. It feels like I’m sitting at the edge of a cliff and it breaks and I submerge into nothingness of pure depression snd loneliness. I fake my smiles, and fake my happiness, I truly do not feel anything anymore. I just want to lay down and never wake up to be free from this world, I don’t want to see it anymore. The news of corruption hurts, drawing in getting boring and it’s getting hard. My brain is constantly spinning with question I can’t find the answer because I’m too tired. I just want to go, but if I hurt myself, I’ll feel that pain forever in heaven. I regret my deepest mistakes, my worst regret it being born. My followers are my pride in joy and it breaks my soul when people unfollow me—why do you unfollow me? Because I work too hard to make things for you? I don’t make things because of my enjoyment, I make it for you. You can’t really say “I’m there for you” because I’m not there for myself. I am deeply sorry if this makes you sad, but I currently cannot feel anything. Good day/night. I’m not sure what’ll happen next. Logging off—Flutter
