୨୧ ⏔⏔⏔⏔ ꒰ঌ ♥ ☆ ♥ ໒꒱ ⏔⏔⏔⏔ ୨୧ trigger warnings!!! ( pls read before reading!! ) : mentions of $h, $a, $u3s1d3, p1ll$ / ov3rd0$3, ch1l @bv$1v3 and m3ntal h0sp1tal ୨୧ ⏔⏔⏔⏔ ꒰ঌ ♥ ☆ ♥ ໒꒱ ⏔⏔⏔⏔ ୨୧ okay so yeah i went 2 the mental hospital in 2024 and missed a month of school and i was in the hospital for 3 weeks and in partial for the rest of the month. it started cuz i was going insane w/ being bullied and harassed at school and i attempted a few times but i decided 2 report myself 2 the police ( i used safe2say ) and that night me and my mom went 2 the hospital and we were stuck in a tiny room w/ a camera, a chair, a single bed, and a tv for 17 hours. it was a bit of arguing, crying and stressfulness that made me regret my decision but i couldn't leave. my mom drove me to the mental hospital and my sketch book and stuff was taken but i got to keep my dinosaur plushie and went to the children's center and she left me their in a chair w/ where my hoodie was taken 2 have the strings cut. i didnt talk much on my first few days but slowly warmed up but still hated it their. the beds were uncomfortable and u couldnt bring ur own blankets from home and u can only have 1 plushie so i was freezing cold at night. also the staff there misgendered me and used she / her pronouns for me but i use them now cuz i found out i gender fluid. also i thought about attempting in the hospital but gave up. while i was there i learned why i was scared of my parents, it was because they use to hit me when i was younger. my dad would slap me across the face or on my thigh and my mom would hit me with a spatula or my dad's belt on my bum and i would cry. the same thing happened 2 my siblings expect 4 the youngest cuz my parents changed but im still a bit scared of them. :( also before going, i though about 0v3rd0$1ng ibuprofen :p . ୨୧ ⏔⏔⏔⏔ ꒰ঌ ♥ ☆ ♥ ໒꒱ ⏔⏔⏔⏔ ୨୧ funny story, day i was discharged my dad accidently cut his tire in our way home but it wasnt that bad (kinds) also i missed halloween and that was 2 years in a row i missed halloween, last time was cuz i broke my foot </3 ୨୧ ⏔⏔⏔⏔ ꒰ঌ ♥ ☆ ♥ ໒꒱ ⏔⏔⏔⏔ ୨୧ at partial i was taken there by a white van drives by a very chill old man who didnt care if u cussed in the van or brought a blanket and plushie and laid down, didnt buckle or sleep in the car. i also was allowed 2 sleep in my classroom and bring my mp2 player and headphones i got 2 listen 2 femtanyl. 1day i was going 2 the mini store there where u got candy w/ points u earned and on my way back my classmate, a guy who was taller then me cornered me and hvmp3d my thigh, aka $/@ me... i was crying and ran into my friend's classroom 2 hide... also met one of my best friend's there who i met @-fromberry who then got me into crk (we know each other irl) so yeah, not great overall. :<
song : Undertale : Fallen Down - Toby Fox
