Is this really the choice I want to make? To go back on everything we've done together? Am I leaving Darknife just like Jon left me? Aidyman hates me now. I made Darknife depressed. I never wanted to hurt him. I never wanted to hurt anyone. Brown was right, I'm selfish. I'm just as bad as Clone KINGORANGE73, I'm even worse than him. What kind of friend ends a friendship like that? We were friends for so freaking long and I abandoned him. I threw away everything. I RUINED everything. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!? This is all my fault. I thought I was a hero... Being a hero means you put your well being below others', so who am I to make them sad just because being around them makes me sad? I will never be happy. What do I do? What do I do? What do I do? I can't go back to him. All of this would have been for nothing. Darknife moved to an entirely different timeline because of me. So many people are going to die without him, and it's all because of me. I DON'T DESERVE TO WEAR THIS STUPID CROWN. I don't deserve any of this. I was given a chance to have a friend again, and I threw it away. I will always be alone. All I have left is Midnight and Lily. They are the only light I have in this stupid world. I don't know what I'd do without them... I don't know why I'm even writing this down. Nobody cares. None of you care... I can't handle this. I quit working at the KONA.
