im doing this now because its near the end of the year, and i thought i would go on one big massive rant. i loved it back in the day. i dont mean like, the 90's, i mean when i was little. see, school was better then. or mabye it was just me.. we used to have snacks in meithrin with more variety. we could get egg, ham, cheese, tuna, jam or cheese sandwiches. Now it's just three:jam ham and cheese. not the healthiest options, but it all went downhilll after then, so i guess it was money. there were also lots of children i was friends with. but oh, they went. new faces, reappearing and disappearing. it was terrible, barley any familiar faces. there were also go-karts. i used to love those! but we never went on them again after covid. or at least, the big kids never did. see, little ones are like VIP. they get everything. We ALL used to share a garden, a big L shaped black of land were we used to play around and do gardening. Nowadays, they've built huts and mud kitchens and things, and the little ones are in there all the time, and i wouldn't have a problem with that if the teachers didn't say we were TOO OLD. no. That couldn't be right. TOO OLD. yes, apparently. there are these twinkl signs up and the have words on them. there everywhere. right next to the flower bed, there is one that says 'flowers', yes we can see that. if the little children don't know what flowers are, then i think out genaration is absolutely doomed. now, they have dug up the entire park. it was a simple park, and even when i think about it now it sparks up the nostalgia and tears sting my eyes. the old park.. wooden, with dark green. bars, not monkey bars but just bars. we used to do flips on them. it was amazing.. there was a slide structure with 2 ways of getting up and 2 little slides, plus a pole wich you could get down from. but we never used it properly, as there was a lot of friction, so instead you just jumped down on climed up it, or in the 'cool' girls cases, (including me) swung on the top area and flipped off it. that's when i almost broke my wrist. Oop. the was so many more things. a hamster wheel were we used to play a game where yu had to walk along it and pretend there were crocodiles at the bottom, and there was also the stepping stones, where the girls used to host fashion shows. yes, fashion shows. even though we had to wear school uniform, we figured out ways. there was a climbing frame cave, what we called it, and that's where the boys always used as their den. the girls used the top of it, by climbing up, but the boys couldn't get up so we were fine. there was a climbing frame mountain. very very very small, so most of the time desolate. there was a bridge where there were seperate platform, swinging from rope. but the litteraly KNOCKED IT DOWN after we started swinging on the platfroms and using them as ponies. i mean, come on guys, that is so uncool. to knock it down?? we and i were little back then, so its kinda all fuzzy in my head. buts its a bright image.and if we still had that park, i didn't think i would have been depressed in yr 5 as they dug it all up. that depression was long, lasting most of the year.i would skip class and cry in the toilets. and yes, i broke a stall in frustration. oop. not gonna tell u any more about that, cuz it was baisicaly like that for the entire yr. the new park was eh, as they only used half. swings, bucket swing, money bars, a round a bout, all that jazz. it was the JL jones stuff. the ugly stuff. i perfered the old park. nicer. but they kept the old slide structure. i don't know why. now you have bright vivid colors clashing with the nice wood and dark green. ugh. i wish the people doing that would have a brain. the other side of the park is just grass. headmaster says they are gonna make it into a garden. i really wish i could give them a piece of my mind. here goes..this is gonna be hard without cursing.. 'WELL MABYE IF THOSE STUPID LITTLE RASCAL VIP LITTLE DISGUSTING CHILDREN WOULD STOP HOGGING THE ENTRIRE GARDEN THAN MABYE WE WOULDNT NEED TO MAKE A NEW ONE! GO FIGURE, -' ok ill stop myself there lol but the new one they are making is gonna be owned my little rascals too. yep. proboblobs. more in notes and credits!
anyway, lets move on to class. i have a friend group, but i feel im beng left out. ok, so lets call this child Steph. im friends with 'Steph', but Steph had another friend. im kinda friends with them, but not really. then another child comes along. lets call them.. Ann. i become best friends with 'Ann' , better that 'Steph'. but now the other kid, lets call them Jess, is now including another child in the friend group, lets call them, Amealia. now, for a lot of activities they are for 4 peoople. normaly that would be me, steph, Ann and Jess. but now, they are making groups consisting of Steph, Ann, Jess, and Amealia. now, im kinda sad, because i dont think they like me anymore. it feels even more sad when you're the one who started the group. yes, i staryed it. and now im worried i wont have anyone to work with until friars, and even then i prob wont have any friends.. anyway, we used to do gymnastics too with this gymnastics teacher, and they were really fun. but then they stopped working there, and now all we have is what i call off brand gymnastics, where its just our teacher telling us to do a forward roll or star jumps. no vaults. no big climbing frame. no flip bars. no rope and ladder frame.. its so sad. they have started to cheap out on out meals too, but ill update u if it carries on. now bye...
