I'm such a terrible Christian guys I could vent so hard about it I have so many opinions and problems and other things. Anyways uhh... Hope you get what you want out of this survey could I uh... Vent to someone? Maybe? Without judgement? Just forget I said anything .,_,. SCREW IT I VENT HERE AND NOW 1. Its so hard being a Christian when you think different. I feel ostracized, and judged, and not safe to talk about feelings. Everyone hates gay people but I don't see the point, and I feel like because I do, they'll all yell at me. I prob can't even go to therapy because I live in a state where most people do not agree with my worldviews 2. My mental health problems suck and I ask God to help me but I don't know that I even deserve it because I feel like I only half believe in Him. I'm probably going to be sent to Hell, and I truly want to believe, but something always keeps me back. WHY IS IT SO HARD FOR MY BRAN TO WRAP AROUND?! 3. Everyone always tells me they'll pray for me and stuff but if they truly knew what I thought and who I was they would turn their backs and reject me. I can't really trust anyone. Like why the heck am I venting to strangers but not to my family or friends?! 4. I'm drifting away. Everything I thought I was I seem not to be. I'm not good enough. Too indecisive. I'm probably not even a Catholic anymore. HOW IS IT SO EASY TO BE SO HAPPY AND BELIEVE EVERYTHING YOU ARE TOLD?! Shoot that got too deep sorry ._.
