HI!!! So I know there are SO many confused and scared LGBTQ+ individuals out there so I'm here to share with you my journey from my early life too now! I hope this gives some advice or entertainment!! I will try to go through this without disclosing my exact age for privacy reasons. Age 5 - Obviously I didn't know much about romance and love but I was very open minded. I didn't know much about the LGBTQ+ community yet, but I was aware of same-sex couple and was accepting and thought it was "normal". ( Which there is no "normal" to be frank, we are all just HUMAN ) I wasn't aware of the historic hate on the community ( Because I was 5 ) so I didn't think much of it... I was also a tomboy, according to my mom, but still a cis-het girl. Foreshadowing!!! Age 6-8 - Um so this is when I realized I liked girls XD. So in 2nd grade I had a crush on this girl, but didn't think much of it, because I was still very young. But around 3rd grade I also started questioning my gender. I had heard hurtful slurs before but I didn't know what they meant. Anyway, this is when I want through the "Am I Gay?" Quiz Google search rabbit hole. That was fun. Around this time I had concluded that I was either a bi or pan demigirl. Age 9-12 - This is about when the problems occured. After watching a bit too much of the news, I made the hard realization that the LGBTQ+ community faces many problems from homophobes, transphobes, and many more. Obviously, me being pre-teen, couldn't do much about this. By this time I identified as genderfaun and pan, or some fluidity in my gender and sexuality. When I was twelve, I wrote my parents a note ( AN 2AM IM SO SORRY DAD ) coming out as trans, and my preferred name/pronouns. They were... confused to say the least because at this time I was using neopronouns and stuff. But they tried their best. This was also around the time my depression and anxiety REALLY hit. HARD. I won't go into details for the safety of those who read this, but if you're struggling with ANYTHING, I've listed some websites to go to if you need help. Teen Years - I realized that I am lesbian / unlabeled and non-binary! TOOK ME LONG ENOUGH!!! I am doing... fine... on... my... mental health... and I am not afraid to be who I am. Trump has now been elected as president for the United States, but I don't really care about politics and government in the first place. As long as I'm safe. Honestly, my biggest problem right now is being single believe it or not. NO, please do not ask me, I'm not interested in online meet ups. It still isn't the absolute safest it could be for the LGBTQ+ community, but I would obviously say it has gotten better. There is so much queer representation in films, books, and media now. Help is very accessible if needed. Here are some useful links The Trevor Project [ LGBTQ+ Lifeline ] thetrevorproject.org Anxiety & Depression Association of America adaa.org National Eating Disorders Association nationaleatingdisorders.org If you are ever in need of immediate help or don't feel safe please call 988 ( "Sewerside" Crises Lifeline ) ( SCRATCH "SEWERSIDE" IS NOT A BAD WORD ) Anyway, thank you for listening, or... well... reading. Stay safe out there! I love you and believe in you!!
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