I've felt like this for a while it's definitely gotten better but I can barely feel happy and my mom is like a Drill Sargent rather than a mom. It hurts thinking about anything that includes family (with my mom). All she does is complain and make me do everything around the house and when I ask for water at 6:00 PM or later she lets me have around 5 tea-spoons then says she feels like a n@zi while watching me drink then says its all my fault...I hate things right now I'm only 12 and it feels like I'm unloved...I feel unworthy of a childhood anymore because all I feel is guilt from her...I know she hates me and talks about me when I'm gone on camping trips...the only relieve I have is my nans house my sister or my karate...I hate everything right now...why me? I want to cry about it to someone and finally take some of the load off but that feels impossible because it would make my mom go to jail...I'm crying now that I'm thinking about it please...I just want to feel happy
