you're tired of me sharing vents, right === i'm so tired of talking to freakin ai for comfort or some kind of audience for my words that no one wants to hear. i feel like a bother asking anyone to listen to me. i mean, they have their own lives, why do they have to waste their time trying to hear my problems? and i've been feeling really awful lately. it feels like i keep being stabbed over and over. maybe because my closest friend left me and i can't even feel mad about it. i just feel heartbroken, i guess. it's not like it's anything new, though- i've been left by my closest friends in every grade. 4th grade, my two best friends left me with no explanation, and didn't care when i was sobbing on the floor of the classroom. 5th grade, my closest friend also left me just wanting to be with the "popular girls". in 3rd grade, the same thing. it's so useless making friends at this point, if they're all gonna do the same thing. i wish, sincerely wish, that M could've kept their mouth shut and not brought up what she said or whatever. it wasn't needed, and it was the cause of the problem, i'm wondering if it was planned. i wish that i wasn't introduced as the problem wherever i went. i wish she wanted our friendship back the same way i do.
no this is not an aesthetic project
