I am a perfectionist I am a people-pleaser Don't judge, please. :> ...................................................................................................... In around 6th grade, I realized that I have "masks." When I go to school and see my friends, I have 5-15 minutes where I'm quiet, watching my surroundings, looking at everyone else to see what the general 'vibe' is today. Then, I start cracking jokes I know everyone will enjoy and acting like I belong. I call that mood my mask. Same with my family, girl scouts, etc. I even have a Scratch mask! And, if I really think about it... I don't know who I am. I don't have a true self. This is probably why I am so afraid to share with my irl friends/family my 'identity.' Because I'm not sure. I know all these groups would be kind and accepting, but it's just... Scary. Like, REALLY scary. Another worry I have is I MAYBE have a tiny little crush on my best friend, but she's Christian, and multiple times has been insulted with the implication that she's gay, so... Please be nice. Support is welcomed. Have a good day :>
