im not even supposed to be here my light never existed no matter how i feel in life who cares about me other than my friends every ones life is good ok but not hell i cant stand suppressed emotions anymore everyone wants to tear my family apart and it's alr in shreds I cant take it anymore my sister wants to cry and fake about everything saying something to me and wonder why I don't be in the building I be out the building so I don't crash and hurt my self or someone I should have left when she left I don't get why I'm here anymore I'm not even close to anyone or understanding why I'm here I don't get why I'm still here I should have been gone my life is basically a living hell why I'm here I don't get why I'm still here I should have been gone my life is basically a living hell why do I suffer everyday change someone else feel the pain I go thru but no one doesn't and no one ever will they want to make fun and tease people like them I swore I'd never be like them But I was just a kid back then The older I get, the more that I see My parents aren't heroes, they're just like me And loving is hard I've been suppressing anger hate sadness I can only hold that in for so long and I'm sad they don't care they just go on with there life like I don't exist I'm mostly in the bathroom crying because I cant keep my flaming ball of emotions in check I crash because I'm sad and cant force it out the bad feelings I have balled up inside me and people don't understand they just cant understand me I cant change because I like the way I am I don't know how to tell them because they don't want to be normal parents I just want a normal family its like all I ever wanted
my voice sounds like a baby so ignore that part just listen or read it there ^ ^^ ^^^ ^^^^ ^^^^^ ^ ^ ^
