Edit: I suddenly feel better (Ain't no way I actually silently cried while writing this) I had troubles with drawing these days, it's April now and I... I think I lost the motivation, the passion, the ability to draw. I've been drawing for 4 or 8 years, it has been my passion and my hobby for so long. But as I grew older, I draw for fame not for fun anymore.. And the fact that I have a habit of having a desire to finish things quickly, it's taking a toll on me, especially when it's about drawing. I have friends that drew way more better than me, I felt jealousy building up inside my head, but I know I'll never can be like them. My young self and my older self wouldn't thank me for this, all I can do is disappoint them. Sure, you say my art is very good, but it took me a ton of retries and my head keeps telling me that my art is bad and that I can't improve, it's hard to follow my heart now. It feels like I'm chained up and locked inside a cage, this is all my fault, if I didn't draw too much, I wouldn't go through this. I'm drawing- no making something for two of my friends and I'm just... I'M JUST SO FREAKING LAZY TO DRAW, I WANT MYSELF TO EARN BACK THE MOTIVATION, THE PASSION AND THE ABILITY THAT I'VE YEARNED FOR DAYS. I HATE THE WAY I DREW THEIR OCS. EVERY TIME I DRAW SOMETHING, I'M UNABLE TO PUT MY STYLE IN IT AND ENDED UP COPYING IT TOO MUCH. I'm losing hope, and I'm crushing my dreams of becoming one of the best artists.... I can't seem to make myself take a break, I'm always drawing and I just wish I never even drawn at all. I'm sad that I'm a person that is unable to do something good, I hate myself. If I take a break from drawing, I could actually lose the talent.. I CAN'T EVEN DRAW MY OWN CHARACTERS.. I'm DONE.
