i feel like i shouldn't be here. i really don't mean what i said but it's been said so people will probably hate me regardless. not their fault anyway. i can't help but think about how much of a grip this stupid mental stuff has on me. also if this is the last project i post before i likely get absolutely eaten up by other people's insults i wanna put my last shoutout to SGL for suggesting i make this project to vent. can i just stop being this stupid for once IN MY LIFE? WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY