I don't often talk about my feelings or emotions on scratch, and I feel like it's not a good place to do so. But recently, I've just been feeling really really bad, mentally, and I just need to get this out. At the moment, I've been under constant stress. I'm so stressed that I've gone back into my old ways of shelling myself away from others and not talking like I have been. My parents aren't helping too. I'm constantly trying to make them happy, My recent report card released, which had all A's. And guess what? They pointed out the lowest grade on it and basically said "Do better." Okay. I recently took the ACT test for the first time, and made an 18, which is a good-ish first time grade. What was I told? "You're smarter than that." Okay. I'm supposed to text them when I leave and make it to places, even when they can track my location anyways. And when I forget, They lock my phone down so that I can't do anything on it. At the age of 17, when all the other people at my school get free reign on their devices. It's unfair. They say it's to help "discipline" myself, but whatever. Not to mention, the family drama that I've been constantly hit with back and fourth for a year now. Ever since I broke away from one side to focus on school. I'm constantly called, texted, complained to, guilt tripped, gaslighted, and overall just overwhelmed by them, almost every day. If I give in, I'll lose what little happiness I have left. Going back and fourth between two different houses every two days is just so stupid. I'm tired, even when I sleep over 8 hours. I'm always tired. Going to work helps me forget about things but it's only temporary. When I get back home, Everything is dull again. Everything has just lost it's color. I don't feel well anymore. My parents expect too much from me, everyone does at this point. I don't know why I felt the need to post this project, but things have just been too overwhelming as of late. So, whatever.
I made the music awhile ago. Can't remember what it was for. 14 views with nothing to say. .. Whatever. I don’t care anymore.
