READ THIS (spoiler: I'm not quitting) (this isn't drama this is about my mental health So I'm turning 13 in a week. Yay(?) I'm not ready yet. My motivation is at an all time low. So I decided to take a break from scratch for me to feel better. But it didn't help, I feel likes these are problems for me: growing up, maturing and mainly trying to fit in. I really want to become an animator. But AI exists, I despise AI. I don't know what am I am going to do anymore. I'm scared for my future. I'm scared for anyone's future. I don't want anyone to be exposed or get into drama. For example, I was looking forward to watching C2BC but the creator got exposed. I'm not done with ONE. (don't get mad) I heard it's peak but I just don't feel like I want to watch it anymore. Also my progress on Village of Objects and Object Kerfuffle aren't that good. I barely started OK and didn't even finish VOO. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm 95% done with one of my bigger projects but it doesn't feel like I want to do it. I keep pressuring myself to do it in 3 days but now, it's been 2 weeks since I started it. Even though I have good grades, I'm falling behind. I don't want to be screamed at. When someone was screaming I felt the same as like how Pencil felt in TPOT 16 when Fanny was safe. I was at the verge of crying and don't want to do this weekend school anymore. They're really strict and give us tests every class. (I'm in 7th grade) I don't want to do this. I I'm NOT ready I feel like I have nothing to do, barely anyone to talk to while I'm defenseless. Plus, You might know that I cancel my camps (BLAND, Host Hours) it's because of my motivation, I was going to make a speedrun camp called BURNOUT on my birthday but I don't want to do it. I'm planning to make two versions of Torch (the 2nd ver is my pfp) but I don't feel like doing the assets right now. Today I decided to go on WB since March 1st. But, I forgot to log in. So I can't use it and have to take another break for 2 weeks Also on my birthday, my brother's friend's stealing the spotlight due to him having the same day as me. I have nobody to invite, nobody invites me, I'm unorganized, my huge projects barely even come out. I'm scared to talk to people or even make friends. It feels like I'm left out, I'm always left out, people at my school sometimes don't care about how I feel or even forget I exist. I'm not quitting, I'm in a horrible state right now, I'm not ready for my future. I both want and DON'T want to take a break from making projects, I'm not sure what's better.
Music: Alltta - Bravado
