I know what yor thinking. Sharing your personal life to random people online is not a sustitute for therapy. But, honestly? It's the only vent I got (besides ChatGPT). I dont have any one else. no one else will listen. My mom says im 'creative'. My grandma says I need to 'try harder.' How am I supposed to do that when I already AM? What am I talking about? Well, I think i might have ADHD. I dont want an EXCUSE I want ANSWERS. My Mom... she doesnt undrstand. I try to tell her, she pushed it aside. she says she cares, and she does, I know that, she just doesnt understand. Im to afraid to talk to my Dad. he is not bad, but not ideal. I dont know how he will react. Im sad, and confused, and overwhelmed, but dont know the right answer, and I have no where to vent. I asked mom for a counsiler, but didnt tell her why. Im to scared to share. I feel like my feelings are being pushed aside, but I also know Thats parshly my fault. I dont know. Is this a crazy rabbit hole? The coincidences are too coincidencel. I have a VERY high probability of adhd, and maybe thats why I feel like no one truly understand me. Whats my promblem? Every time my mom hets mad at something like: "how did you foregt where you put your latin books?!" or, "You got sidetracked again?" and, "You just need to try harder, is all." Feels like another dagger to my heart. And what do I do? I push the sadness away. Oneday, it all came crashing down. I burst out crying, for no apparent reason. My mom asked, "What's wrong?" I responded, "I dont know." I lied. I did. Im still sad. school is overwhelming. I like it, but I cant. Yes, I memerise plays. Im interested in that. school? I feel completely unfocused and overwhelmed like the whole worlds going to come crashing down on me. No one knows. except me. all I want, is too please my parents because deep down, The only reason I ever tired myself to do good in school or participated in my parents projects I didn't really want to be in, is because I just want to make them proud. I dont know. Ive gone on a ramble. And if my parents are reading this, can you forget everything said here? if you made it this far comment "potatoe"
Hate to be that paragraph girl.
