!!TW: RANT, VENT!! I’m genuinely done with life right now. I have a horrible sleep schedule, I am TRYING my hardest in school and doing good but why should I even try? I feel like I only have a couple of genuine friends, I’m in the closet WHICH IS HORRIBLE BY THE WAY, I have an almost constant ache, I feel terrible, if I don’t have caffeine I don’t feel like doing anything and I hate myself, I probably have depression but I DUNNO, I HATE MY BODY SHAPE, I don’t want to do anything but let the Earth slowly reclaim me, I have barely any will to live. The other day, my earbuds broke. IF YOU DO NOT KNOW THIS ABOUT ME, I LIKE MUSIC A LOT. Music is one of the only things in life that brings me joy right now. And I can’t listen to the music I want. I’m done with life right now. I just want to feel happy again. I’m on the verge of tears writing this. I need a helping hand, but if I tell my family, I feel they’re just gonna call me dramatic and dumb. Therapy is expensive, friends and caffeine and video games and music and… other stuff isn’t enough. I DO NOT WANT TO DO THIS RIGHT NOW. I just… need a break. Is it? Is my depression real? Or is it in my head?
