hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. i'm not very good at these things soooo. . . uhhh, i just wanted to say that i've been having a lot of fear and doubt and i literally have no idea why. i can't think straight, i hardly want to eat unless people are around me and i'm comfortable. no one listens because i'm 'too young' to deal with this stuff. everything is like a crushing weight on my shoulders no matter what i do. at home i barely want to look or even think about anything at all. everyone says that i'm fine and i'm just being sensitive, but i don't know anymore. maybe i'm being overdramatic. and i feel exhausted no matter how much sleep i get. the only reason i'm actually here right now is because i just remember my cat and how i have to come home to her at the end of the day. but all these things have been weighing me down, i can barely sit still at all. sooooo. . . yeah that's pretty much it. sorry to dump that on ya'll. any advice perchance?
oh, yeah, and i'm constantly terrified of my grades and that they're going to drop at any moment. Not to mention that I'm an otherheart, and my parents hate any kind of furry or therian. And the fact that I'm aroace, which my parents will probably deny and tell me that I'm straight. Because they're homophobic. not to mention the fact that it's all my fault because i can't just get rid of it, you know. just stop having these feelings according to my parents.
