my mom wants to take me to get my hair cut today or some other day and i dont want to it looked ugly when they first cut it and it wasnt fluffy it was just flat and ugly and i finally got it looking fluffy and i like it rn ijoefvksduoefhvj :o[ her on the phone"they need a haircut bad bad bad bad, it looks bad, awful." STOP STOP STOP IT DONT TAKE ME I LIKE IT RIGHT NOW YOU'RE MAKING ME FEEL INSECURE I FEEL LIKE IM ABOUT TO CRY i know i need my hair out of my eyes but they're planning on cutting it down too not just my bangs. it looks ugly after they wash it, its flat and ugly and i hate it. it took me so long to get it how i liked it why shut up shut up please i dont want to go im stupid for complaining arent i EDIT: I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I DIDNT WANT IT CUT I WORKED SO HARD TO GET IT SO PRETTY I HATEIT AND MY MOM SAID THAT ITS HER MONEY SO SHE CAN GET IT CUT HOWEVER SHE WANTED IT TO I HATE IT I LOOK SO UGLY I HATE IT I FINALLY GOT IT TO HOW I WANTED IT TO LOOK AND THEN SHE MAKES ME GET IT CUT OMG IM GOING TO GET BULLIED its too short i know its a pixie cut but i hate it i hate how i look i hate myself already and like my hair was one of the only things i kind of liked about myself because i can get it to how i like it and like idk i kind of had like a mullet but like not a mullet and it looked so pretty because i could get it where my hair would like stretch out at the bottom and now i want to bang my head against a wall i know my hair wont make people love me any less but it makes me love myself less when i knew she'd get it cut all i hoped for was to get it out of my eyes because i knew that was the only issue she had but she got everything cut. i hate it i hate it so much WHY AM I CRYING THIS IS SUCH A STUPID REASON TO CRY whenever i would get in the shower id mess with it a bunch and it looks so pretty when i get out and blow dry it and now idk wth im supposed to do it looked so pretty i cant believe this lol my brain keeps telling me that all my friends are going to hate me now that my hair is ruined even though ik thats wrong, its making me believe it haha i didnt want to get it cut in the first place and my mom yelled at me because i was complaining about my hair she didnt even have to get it cut for me that haircut was $82.00 she just wasted, some of that her christmas money she didnt have to get it cut for me i try so hard to take care of it to get it how i like i deserve to be bullied it looks atrocious i miss it being fluffy and my bf would like idk pat my hair and now id understand if it doesnt even want to touch it i dont want to touch it either i hate it i hate it so much my brain keeps thinking "who'd love you now that you look like this" i want it to grow back already i dont like it i dont i keep trying to fidget with it to find a place i like but i never can get it to where i like i worked so hard to get it to how i liked my aunt, the one who took me, was like "it'll grow back in the summer" months i dont want to wait ^_^ months i spent when i first got my haircut last time till i finally got it looking pretty and i was so happy i was so grateful now i look stupid i hate myself a little more now i know its stupid to hate yourself because of your hair but i took care of my hair so i could get it looking nice all that for nothing just recently i finally got it looking pretty. every time id get out of the shower and blow dry it, id look at myself in the mirror and feel happy because i felt like i looked good now im going to look at the mirror and cry and i got b a n g s i regret asking for them i was hoping it'd make it look a little better when they cut it but it made it look WORSE :3 :o] i hate myself I HATE MYSELF i want to bite myself ill be okay ill be okay it'll grow back it will and i can get it back i just have to figure out soemthing else whenever it does grow back because bangs. ive kind of accepted it now i still hate it but i mean it doesnt look terrible i guess. still hate it very much but i can manage i guess. im just worried what my friends will think
