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its genuinely so hard for me to stay happy when i have to worry about ALL of my friends mental health, i dont think i know a single person who is mentally healthy and happy and it makes me sad!! and a lot of people i like are leaving scratch, and i cant really handle that for some reason it makes me want to cry seeing all the dead profiles in my following list but i dont want to unfollow them because what if they come back?? and i feel like i dont get enough attention from anyone even though I DO and im just a big attention seeker i swear!!!!!!!! im probably just overreacting right now as usual and am fine because i dont feel as much of that heart dropping worthless feeling as i used to months ago but im still doing HORRIBLE right now and am even struggling with school, my grades used to be a mix of a lot of As and Bs but now i pretty much have all Bs and im failing summatives because i actually cant work fast enough to complete them even if i have the largest amount of time, and a lot of them require public speaking which makes it harder to get decent grades on them or do them at all. i also cant do anything about how bad im feeling because i cant really tell anyone or theyll worry too much about me and i just shrug it off like what i said was exaggerated. i am also beginning to hate and judge the quality of my work which makes it hard for me to make art or really anything because i just get rid of it because my standards are too high, i really wish i could go back to when everyone supported me and i supported myself. i hate every single mistake ive made and how theyve DESTROYED my life, and i keep continuing to make more even though ive sworn ill never again. i genuinely dont know if i should post this because itll just be one more thing to regret!! i wish i could just be floating in a void, where i cant do anything and nobody can do anything to me. i genuinely cant shake The Thought out of my head, no matter how many times i tell myself nothing will happen and even if, everyone will miss me. its hard, but im going to stay right here and nobody can make me leave, not even myself. death wont even seperate me from you all if it comes to that, FIGHT ME GRRRRR detonates and giggles hits a jig hugs you and runs away
