[this is from yesterday] I'm starting to feel like everything's falling apart. All of a sudden while in a good mood today, I stumbled across a lot of my friends hurting and a few leaving and I feel like there's nothing I can do. And I know, you're probably all yelling at me like: people have it worse than you y'know. Yeah, I know. I probably shouldn't be feeling sorry for myself right now. I get it. But I just want the people I care about to be ok... Why does everything seem to happen to the people I care about, but not to me? I don't like it. I want them all to be happy and feel supported when they're hurting... Everyone has it worse than me. I've never had depression, but meanwhile all my friends have it and they're suffering. I'm constantly fearing my friends hurting themselves or worse... And one of them, I'm not even sure if she's ok... I'm really trying here to make my friends feel supported and try to help, but I fear that it may not be enough. I take pride when people tell me that I've made their day or helped them. I want to do that more. Not be praised, but to hear that I've helped someone; that I've made their day. My ultimate goal in life is to make people happy and to make them feel loved and supported.
I dunno if this is a rant or a vent. Eh, feels like a vent
