My mom yelled at me and made me cry and i dont think she cared. She knew i started crying and she didnt care But then after she apologized i think she felt bad because of how sad i looked in front of her I got so mad at myself i buried my face in some pillow and cried and when i get mad at myself i scratch at my skin out of anxiety and stress I think she forgot i got diagnosed with anxiety in 3rd grade Because she believed me when i lied to her recently about me not having anxiety And she yelled and told me that i can forget coming over to my boyfriend’s house this weekend I dont know if she actually means it but it made me start crying harder I wanted to apologize to him I wanted to make things right I wanted him to know i cared about him I wanted to know he still wanted to see me She might have changed her mind though I dont know But im so mad at myself I feel like she has a right to be mad at me I can barely breathe Last day of 2024 and thats what happens This year has sucked so bad Ill just stuff my face with ice cream as a way to cope
