Hfyjvkcnfhfhhahagvaghaghgash!!! This is pawsome bro!!!! I HAVE A RASH OMG SDUDUE ALL I WANTED WAS SOMETHING TO PUT ON IT AND SHE THINKS IM TRYING TO GET OUT OF CLASS LITERALLY I DIDNT EVEN ASK TO GO TO THE NURSE AT FIRST I JUST ASKED MY TEACHER IF I COULD HAVE SOMEHTING TO PUT ON IT AND SHE TOLD ME TO GO TO THE NURSE AND I GET BLAMED FOR "SKIPPING CLASS" OMG I ALMOST STARTED CRYING WHEN I GOT BACK TO CLASS IF MY OLD DOCTOR WASNT DEAD THE NURSE WOULD KNOW HOW MUCH I WORRY ABOUT MY HEALTH I GET ANXIOUS OVER EVERY LITTLE THING THAT OCCURS ON MY BODY AND MY OLD DOCTOR WAS ONE OF THE ONLY PEOPLE WHO KNEW THAT ABOUT ME BECAUSE I CRIED IN FRONT OF HER SO MANY TIMES BECAUS EI THOUGHT I WAS DYING anyways im shaking really bad i feel like im going to hack up a hairball so yeah uhm idk i have more rashes on my body lol and im too scared to even go back to the nurse's office because what if i get sent to the principal for trying to "skip class" WHEN IM NOT and also i dont like being accused of lying it makes me nervous and i start to get like all stutter-y and my voice gets quiet and i hate it because IT MAKES ME LOOK LIKE I AM LYING BECAUSE I CANT DEFEND MYSELF EVEN WHEN I KNOW IM NOT bro whenever she said that i just literally said so quietly "n-no im not" and she said "yeah you are, get back to class." i felt so small and insecure in that moment lmao i looked down the whole way i walked back to class trying not to break down in tears also i told my teacher what she said and uhm she said she wont make me go back there again, and like she said that that wasn't nice what she said and like my teacher was literally the one who told me to go to the nurse, i just asked her if she had anything to put on it so it could ease the irritation. she said that some people just aren't nice, and she said that she thought the nurse would be nice to me sooo likeeee... basically if i vomit all over the floooorrrr and come in to the nurse and tell her, she's going to tell me... im trying to get out of class... and send me back to class where they're cleaning up my vomit lol what if i do vomit one day and she thinks im trying to skip class and she sends me back and i have to explain to the teacher that she just thinks im a liar now and i just find an excuse to skip class, WHICH IVE NEVER DONE OMG DUDE usually if im emo or crying thats the only time i need like a break from class, the art teacher literally let me sit out in the hallway one time to calm myself down because i was bawling there are days where i dont want to show up to classes, yes. BUT I STILL TRY TO DO WORK IN THEM BECAUSE I WANT TO GO TO HIGH SCHOOL I WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE I WANT A STEADY JOB AND A STEADY LIFE, IM GENUINELY TERRIFIED OF WASTING MY YOUTH I DONT WANT TO FAIL I DONT WANT TO GET HELD BACK I WANT TO GET GOOD GRADES I WANT TO MAKE IT TO MY SENIOR YEAR PLUS I DONT WANT TO DO THAT ANYWAY BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO GET IN TROUBLE I DONT LIKE AN ADULT RIDICULING ME IT MAKES ME FEEL SHAME IN MYSELF hghhhhggg bro omg i hope i never have to go back to the nurse's office until i make it to high school (which i doubt!!! i probably will have to go back there one day)
