I'm crying rn. Crying because my partner doesn't understand how lucky I am to have them. Crying because my whole family is homophobic. Crying because I don't want to wear a happy mask anymore. Crying because I never have a choice. Crying because Im so tired of hearing "I care" from my parents when its all a lie. Crying because I need help. Crying because I can't get it. Crying because I get yelled at for things as simple as trying to eat noodles. Crying because I know where the pain started, and theres nothing I can do abt it. Crying because my partner is moving this summer. Crying because the world seems pitted againtst me. Crying because... I miss you Butter. You've been gone for so long but I never let you go. I can't bear it.. I'm not going to go away. Because I can't leave my partner alone. Because I can't leave my friends to wonder 'why?'. Because I can't bear the thought of my parents hearing. Because I can't let everyone down...
