TW: blood and references to superslide I've never been more scared to post a project. I've been having a really hard time lately. This isn't the first time this has happened. Both of my parents have depression, so I guess it makes sense for me to have it. I'm not officially diagnosed, and I'm scared that I'll be labeled as a "dramatic teenager." I've sort-of vented in my "while I was gone" project, but some people interpreted it as my maturing, and I was too scared to tell them that I feel depressed. I don't want you guys to treat me any different, I don't want to be patronized or hated for this, I just want to be treated like a normal human being. My parents signed me up for therapy when they saw the cuts on my wrists and I'm getting a new dose of anti-depressants. VENT: I feel like crap. I don't want to do anything other than just sleep. I want to do nothing, but I don't want to be alone with my thoughts. I feel like I'm doing everything wrong, and that I'm an idiot. I know that I'm not a bad person, but I can't help but believe that I am. I screw everything up. I make mistakes 24/7. I'm not good at anything. My animations are sub-par at best, and my storytelling skills are horrible. I feel like the world would be better off without me. I feel numb most of the time. Why do you guys care about me when I don't care about anything? I feel like I'm consantly doing something wrong, but I can't pinpoint what it is. I have to smile and pretend I'm all happy so I don't get patronized by people. I constantly feel like I'm going to disappoint everyone because I'm not as good as a person as people think I am. I'm scared, lonely, and I don't know what I'm doing with my life. Drawing isn't fun anymore. Stuff that I used to love now seem bland. I used to be able to tell myself that things will get better, but I don't think things will...
