Lately I have been feeling alone. All my friends disclude me from everything. When I used to be invited to everything, I found out that now they don't include me and it hurts. I used to sit next to my friend in aftercare everyday, and now they would rather sit by someone else. They would sit on the opposite side of me and now she acts like we aren't friends. One day, my friend was mad at me because she unfollowed me on scratch and I asked why. She wouldn't talk to me and avoided me. I fixed that, but my other friend was starting to ignore me too. I asked her why, and I pestered her until she told me why. Turns out, my friend that I quarreled with had TOLD HER to basicly ghost me. That really hurt. I felt betrayed and my friend finally followed me back. Now, she is trying to not talk to me at all. I haven't spoken to her in like 3 weeks!!! In fifth grade, I tried to join a friend group, but noone wanted to be my friend. Recently, my friend made a talking/vibing slideshow, and they invited every single one of my friends into their, but I was not invited. I asked and they made very sure I never went near it. All of my friends were talking about it and I felt so left out that I just cried when I got home, wondering why I wasn't good enough. This person used to invite me to everything, like a studio in scratch with all their projects all their friends. They scrapped that studio and made a new one, but I was not invited to it. Another person, she was my friend before this school year, we had a class together. When class would end, while I was packing up or if she was packing up, we would wait for each other. Then, she made a friend in my class. Well, she was my friend too, but then she just stopped waiting for me. She would only wait for my new friend, and when I asked them to wait up, she would call me slow and convince my other friend to abandon me and just go ahead. During dismissal, she used to sit next to me and play catch with me. Now, she does not want to sit with me, she only wants to sit with our new friend. When she used to play catch with both of us, she doesn't even bother to tell me anymore and then i'm just sitting there alone. When I mentioned who I was friends with, in a conversation, I listed a friends name and she said, wait I thought they weren't your friend. When I saw that friend again at youth group, I noticed she tried to avoid me or not talk to her. I ask if she wants to play a board game, she says she wants to wait till more people come. When someone else comes, I ask them if they want to come and when they say yes, she suddenly wants to play too. I noticed since my friend said this, now I realize she is just my friend because other people are my friend and she does not want to look bad in front of my other friends. One of my friends, over the summer she suddenly grew up. I tried to be her friend but she surrounded herself with people who are very rude to me. One of her good friends in that class would always interrupt me when I tried to speak to her. All of my friends are rushing to grow up. I just want to have a good time while I can have it. Most of my friends have gotten phones, and now all they care about is social media. I mean, I barely even watch youtube!!!!!! When I was exited about the dance, i was exited to line dance and play games and eat snacks. My friends just wanted to film "cute" boys doing the worm. I think that's so gross!!!! Most of us aren't even 12 yet and want boyfriends. I don't even have a phone yet!!!! Or an email!!! I honestly think my friends are WAYYYY to young to start dating. In fifth grade, it was okay to like a certain tv show or movie. Now, I am shunned upon by some people because i am a star wars fan!!! My bestie, used to talk to me and engage in conversations. Now, when I try to talk to me she gives me short answers and small responses. She, also, prefers another friend. IN fifth grade, she told everyone that that person is her best friend. I only found out because I asked the gossip girl!!! One day, in a club, she was going, "yeah yeah, uhuh." to me and STARING at the other table with sappy dog eyes, THE VERY TABLE where her so-called bestie was. It was clear that she hates my company. She has tried to be nice to me because she finally noticed how jealous she was making me, but it feels fake. Her so-called bestie also clearly hates me, and is very discluding and she thinks I'm icky but EVERYONE wants to be her friend. I am outnumbered. If I speak against her I will lose all of my friends. One day, I made a mistake with remixing a project. I did not realize what was wrong and the person was very mad at me and got a lot of people to go against me. I did not mean to cause a riot, I was just under the wrong impressions. I am very sorry about what happened, and it was an honest mistake. I felt so bad about it because I made such a stupid error.
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