Hi, It’s me, JustAnna, blah, blah, you get the idea. Over these past few weeks, I haven’t been posting anything for a long while as I normally would post things by up to 1-3 days (?) and today, I'm gonna explain on why. (I was gonna do a voice recording on so, but I’m too demotivated in doing so + at another location as of right now). - Going back to the previous project, there were a bunch of concerned messages about me going to unliven myself (Unliven is not a word, you know what I mean). The rumor was actually true, and I nearly done so, but I was ceased. Now, I know there’d be some comments saying “WHY? WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS/THINK OF DOING SO WITH ALL THE PEOPLE WHO SUPPORT YOU AND SUCH?” and to answer clearly, I say: my life. - I have a lot going on, with trying to get my GED early, and not only that, with the poor relationship I have with my Mom and Dad, things have been surely complicated. I’m starting to grow a little tired of doing certain things here, like with music n such, and I’m kinda slowly starting to see again my stuff as complete trash. - It’s hard for me to make new friends cuz of the certain things I used to do back in my past, with the arguing and unnecessary beefing, that one groom incident back in 2023, and just being a person that’s mostly unwanted. - I don’t see a use for me to continue on what I’m doing anymore because I’ve grown unsatisfied in doing so. I’ve gotten this far, yet, feel so unhappy. I honestly think I was better off a failure than anything else. - I’ve lost a lot too. My friends, my relationships, it all went to absolute trash. I still mourn of my past, and I know it’s unhealthy in thinking so, but I just can’t stop thinking about it, as it had shaped me into trying out new things, and shaped me as a whole different person. (Not for the worse, but for the good, as they were people that have gotten me into certain things, like music for instances). I genuinely believe that I’m my own downfall, and caused this all on myself on purpose. I don’t deserve of the support, nor the followers on here, I am but a disgusting person, a bad friend, and just an over-reacting loser. And now, there you have it. And I guess that’s the answer to why I haven’t been posting. I’m still on break but I don’t know for how long, I just came back to post this specifically. That’s all. I’m sorry, really, for everything. Even if I can’t really write out a big apology for those years and the following to come, I truly am sorry. I’m gonna go silent now, and that’s all. Goodbye, till I return.
