28/10/24 Hi, guys. Sorry I've been so absent these past months. I've just been caught up with my school work and stuff like that lmao. But, I've brought along good news!! My surgery is going to happen tomorrow so I have to stay at the hospital the whole day since my surgery is pretty late. But, Chester has been easing my stress. So, that's pretty good! You know, the whole reason I wanted the surgery was to easily talk to my friends back in Auckland buut, I've just recently moved into Chesters apartment since my parents are moving out of country. Forever. Without me. How messed up is that?! I've loved them, sure. But this is terrible! Anyways, I'll talk to you guys when my surgery is done! 10/11/24 Okay, so.. Bad news. The doctors said there was nothing visible inside my body that would be able to connect to the vocal cords they were adding. So, they had to find a way to keep my vocal cords inside my body without it infecting. Solution? Just make it come out my eyes! MY GOD-DAMN EYES?! Those sick idiots made it go through my eyes?? Well, here's the breaking point for me. Whenever I talk, I get a terrible vibration in my eyes whenever I make sudden sound. So my eyes have been hurting like hell since I first started talking. Don't worry, it's eased. But it still hurts. A ton. I can make short sentences but whenever I yap and yap and yadda yadda ya, it feels like I'm crying a storm of blood. Yep, that bad! I've gone to the doctors, and they've put me on some medication to ease the pain and make it less prone to send me to my grave. Because here's the thing, when my eyes vibrate, it shakes my brain a slight bit which, of course, it's so crappy. I'll talk to you later! xoxo 18/11/24 Ok, it's been over a week and now the pains gone away basically! Sort of.. I just have to try keep my eyes in pristine condition and not get them hurt because if that does happen, my eyes make tear my vocal cords! (since they're connected I'll have to do this again if that happens! Hooray! But, good news, for once. I've moved back to my bed! I've been sleeping on the couch because I did NOT want to move at all. It hurt too much :( So now I don't have to hear the fridge beatbox all night. Anyways bye ya'll! I love all the boys, girls or others listening! And of course, I love Chester (but he doesn't read my notebook, I'd die if he did >:3)! Ok, bye bye for now xoxo (Null talking btw)
Damn, I guess it wasn't all it was worked up to be- @CosmoPen
