(VENT DOWN BELOW) AJ: WHY DO I STICK OUT WHY AM I DIFFERENT HOW DOES EVERYONE GET ALONG SO WELL AND I CANT EVEN BRING MYSELF TOGETHER TO COMMUNICATE LOOK AT SOMEONE EXPRESS THOUGHTS FEELINGS FEEL NOTHING AND YET I STILL TRY TO MAKE PEOPLE SMILE INGAGE EVEN PEOPLE WHO DONT LIKE ME INGAGE EVEN THE PEOPLE WHO TELL ME TOXIC THINGS INGAGE I AM FORCED TO INGAGE IM TIRED OF FEELING SO LONELY BUT I WANT TO BE LONELY IM TIRED OF BEING SAD BUT I WANT TO BE SAD IM TIRED OF BEING SO SELFLESS BUT I WANT TO BE SELFLESS I WANT TO HELP EVERYONE EVEN IF THEY HELP OR NO HELP APOLOGIES OR NO APOLOGIES ITS LIKE WHEN IM GOING TO TALK SUDDENLY PROBLEMS ISSUES IM SO SOCIALLY TERRIBLE EVEN WHEN I DONT NEED TO BE ONLINE HAPPY CHEERY MORON OFFLINE SELFLESS SAD ANTISOCIAL BUT I WANT TO BE ONLINE WHEN IM OFFLINE I DONT WANT TO BE LOVED FOR WHAT I LOOK LIKE OR WHAT I DO I WANT TO BE LOVED FOR BEING ME EVEN WHEN SOMEONE HATES ME HEARING THANKS BEING THANKED APOLOGIES APOLOGIZING AND JOKES ARE STILL JOKES RIGHT NO THEY ARENT DEPENDANT? NO THEY ARENT JOKES TOXICITY IGNORING LISTEN LISTEN LISTEN PLEASE ... PHURSS: i think it will be fine art me code libbythewolfqueen oc aj song in bloom - nirvana (remixed to HAPPY RAVE ^-^ by Renard)
