Okay, so... I am not leaving. Take a minute to let your heartbeat go back down. No, I'm kidding. No one would really miss me that much. :\ Anyway, I'm here to explain the reason for not posting, like ever, not responding quickly, and just not being here as much. First off, I don't really have many project ideas, so I haven't been posting much. *shrug* If you rp with me, maybe you've noticed that I don't respond as regularly as I used to. And sometimes, I even look at your response, but then I just close the tab and don't answer. I'm sorry, life has been really hard lately. School especially. I have papers due every two weeks. I struggle with writing papers, every step is hard. I just really, really, really struggle with them. And no, writing papers and stories are NOT the same thing. Also, I've been having self-esteem issues lately. I'm feeling very negative about myself. Like my appearance. For one, my chin is really far back, so every time my friends and I make a video, when I watch it, I see how horrible it looks. It's like not even there. Also, my adult canines on top haven't come in yet, so I look like a beaver with two very fat teeth because there are gaps on either side. I'm really skinny, and just recently, I started wearing only bf style jeans, because they hide my skinny ankles. Plus, my personality is really hard. I'm very rigid and inflexible. I won't change what I do for anything. It's very unattractive. And, I'm overdramatic, touchy (my parents sometimes call me Crystal because I "shatter"), and I cry a lot. I'm at the point where I don't think I'll ever get m@ri3d, because who could ever fall in |0ve with me? So, yeah, as you can suppose, I cry at night, but... Then I pray and feel so much better! I mean, if I didn't have God, then I don't know where I'd be right now. *smiling through tears* Also, the "big" prayer request I've been asking God every night is to send me my "Nat." Let me clarify: Nat is just a guy in one of my books who is awesome. :) I'm basically asking God for my bf. Sort of. Anyway, there's the gist of my sob story. I just want you all to know why I'm just kinda irregular with responses., but I'm still here. I'm not leaving! Thanks for reading. <3 :(
Music ~ Matthew West - Truth be Told "ι'ɱ ϝιɳҽ, ყҽαԋ ι'ɱ ϝιɳҽ, σԋ ι'ɱ ϝιɳҽ, ԋҽყ ι'ɱ ϝιɳҽ, Ⴆυƚ ι'ɱ ɳσƚ, ι'ɱ Ⴆɾσƙҽɳ"
