pretty much a vent below so tw ig? [tw = trigger warning] -violence, depression, implied death, mention of attention seeking. Please proceed carefully. I feel so broken lately. I feel abandoned. its like being numb, just...fake it, things will get better You know thats not true though! You know it will only get worse you know it will hurt you KNOW THIS!! You know that hundreds of people die every day because THIS takes their hope, leaves them empty and scared!! I dont know what to do anymore...I barely even talk to my best friends anymore. I feel like I'll go on, say something, and look like an attention seeker. But I know I am, have you seen the things Ive said?!? Heck, this is attention seeking, no one needs this stupid rant, no body cares!! This isnt the place or the time!! Suck it up and get over it!! BUT I CANT! Its like Im being swallowed whole by just a pitch black void, I cant see anything anymore! I might as well not have my eyes! ....why am I even posting this? For help? Friends? People relating? Is this all just for fun? To manipulate people, to make them think Im broken inside? ...am I broken inside? I feel like Im just turning into a vessel. a pot for a rose thats already wilted. Atleast someone will find comfort in the glass. but no...the minute it breaks, the minute that vase falls and shatters, Im not the same. No one will come to me for comfort, they'll try to pick up the pieces yeah, try to mend me, put me back together, but they'll get cut by the sharp edges, bleed, wince and drop me, and only make it worse. Even if they manage to fix me, I'll just break again. again and again and again until you just throw me away instead, and buy a new one. not everything that holds memories is valuable.
