TW: Language and harsh implications I am so done being the kind one. I am so done being the one who checks on everybody but no one checks on me. I'm done. No one seems to care about me. Tell me why the h3ll I decided to stay here and work on Mastermind forever, just for people to not care. My "friends" have no idea. I love them (you if you're reading this), but all they see is the happy mask I use around everyone irl. You don't even know me. It burns when I see people out here leaving and then staying and then leaving again. What is going on here??? I specifically targeted my "Give us back the community, it was ours first" project to my friends and other people so that they wouldn't leave, but take breaks instead. I'm not looking for sympathy either, people, I'm looking for a change that I have not found. You deserve a break for whatever you're going through, but you don't need to post a leaving project and leave the comments OPEN. Like, what were you thinking there? Oh, let me just gain some more 'Oh, please don't go"s and "We'll miss you"s before you leave?!?!?!??? If someone was truly looking for a break, they wouldn't need to have the opinions of others, they would just go on break. That right there by leaving the comments open is incredibly rude, imo. I don't care if you disagree with what i'm saying, bc people can agree to disagree with me or with anyone else. This is my voice and my opinion and I'm saying it, so let me say it. Another thing? Whatever this singing on scratch thing is, I don't think I can do it. I CHANGED MY PROFILE AESTHETIC, STATUS, PFP, MADE A SET, AND FOLLOWED STUDIOS. And still I got only 9 people (including myself, mind you) to view the single I dropped.
continued... How the h3lI am I supposed to keep myself alive, people. I put my bl00d, sweat, and tears into all of the things I do for you and then you ignore it. (Also, saying things like ml and queen and slay are all stup1d imo, h@te if you want but it's what I think) Being happy is overrated. I honestly can't keep giving you the happiness you see all the time from me, it's sick and nauseating to sit back and lie over a computer screen about how I feel because I'm so dumb tired of being and feeling sad all the time. I hate that people are getting banned. And that's all I'm going to say about it. I am fed up with certain people in this community, and ready to snap, lashing out at anyone who comments anything I might not think is right or agree with. That's not the kind of person you want to be friends with. I don't care what people think about my opinions, that's for them to keep to themselves if they don't want me angry at them. If you truly know me, then you should know that I only started this account with the intention of it not being used for anything. I was to be in a series called The Pumpkin Lips (which got cancelled) and we needed to have a scratch account to participate in the series. I created a random account (smth like RoyalJuneThe3rd) and deleted it, making this account. @Ally_Shadows was never meant to become a 300+ followed account involved in the Swiftie and aes and livie and Sabrina communities. I can do what I want with my account, including sharing my thoughts with you all (which I hope you would respect, if not then stop following me, idc), sharing my projects that I continuously work so hard on to get only 5 views, and that's it. I so badly want to end it all, deleting this account and my others, not starting fresh again publicly. So listen and listen good. If one more person pisses me off, I'm leaving. You know who you are. And if I keep going to check on people but they aren't going to check on me, I will turn on you all (jk, just come check on me so I don't get lonely) -Ally-
