------------------------------------------------------------------------- As you may or may not know I was professionally diagnosed with POTS in early August and have been dealing with the illness for around four months now. ------------------------------------------------------------------------- First off I'll start with, what is POTS? Well, POTS is a syndrome that stands for Postural orthostatic tachycardia, it contains a wide variety of symptoms, which can contain, muscle weakness, fainting, rapid heartbeat, ect. You can deal with these symptoms by most commonly drinking TONS of fluids and increasing your sodium intake. ------------------------------------------------------------------------- For me I am still struggling to find out what works for me. Currently I am bed-bound and have been for around a month now, I keep having very sporadic episodes based on my severe anxiety and POTS, Yes I cannot go to school, I cannot go talk a walk outside or even walk up my stairs. I basically can barely do anything, it's a struggle for me to sit at my desk and draw as well. I feel super scared, so alone, I don't have any IRL friends at all and I can basically just play games or watch shows on my computer and that's really all I've been doing for the past months. It sucks, it absolutely sucks and this is the lowest point of my life right now. I have no motivation to do anything and am not physically well to do anything. I'm 16 and yet I can't drive like everyone else, I can't go shopping, I can't even go to school like a regular teenager should be doing. I just feel like I'm rotting away in my bed and it sucks, it really does. I'm trying my best to get better but from what I've heard it takes a LOT of work and time to get better. its taken people from as little as 6 months up to 10 years to get better from POTS. I'm going to push myself to try to get better not just physically but mentally as well. In terms of scratch, I will be on and off taking breaks, it takes a long time for me to do art related things seeing as to I can only spend around an hour at my desk at a time sitting up drawing. I'm sorry to everyone I owe art to and that it's been months since I've owed you payments or some other form of art for a collab or a map part or anything. I am trying my best here, please be patient. I am under so much stress and this is a really difficult time in my life. I will be taking breaks throughout this year off of scratch to focus on myself more. ------------------------------------------------------------------------- I also want to thank everyone for supporting me through this hard journey. I'm going to try to get better. I may not be responding to all messages but I'll try my best. I love you all<3 -------------------------------------------------------------------------
I will be keeping this project up for one, educational purposes but two, I need to let everyone know how I'm doing in general in terms of art-payments that I'm behind on :,))) <3
