I just want you guys to know- I love you so much. I love you more than words can even describe. Moonwolf, Liam, Logan, everybody, I just love all of you so much. But, I can't stay forever. I recently took a break as you guys may know. I had the greatest time. I wasn't thinking about scratch, and I finally felt something, something beautiful. Something that was missing. It was freedom. I could finally soak in the joy of my family's faces. I could finally do the things I love. I could finally get close to God. It felt like home. Then, I went back. I was happy to be back, and I loved seeing you guys. But, something felt... off. It was hard to tell what it was, until I realized. I wanted to be free. The break was good, but it wasn't enough. When I thought of scratch, i didn't think of my friends, which was off. I thought of the trauma of the arguments I went through, and the big tasks I still had to do. It wasn't as- happy. I was getting addicted- to the point where my whole life was thinking about the tablet screen. I couldn't get close to God in this way. I just recently watched the wild robot movie today, and it was peak. Taught me lessons I needed to know. A God given movie, I'm certain of. It taught me that- when you love something or someone, you got to let it go. It taught me that as long as I'm myself, no matter how strange or deformed I am, I can fit in anywhere. But, tbh, I didn't feel like myself on scratch, not anymore. I feel like I'm loosing myself. And I hate to say, but being addicted to a coding website where I barely do any coding won't get me anywhere in the future. Just think about it. I have so much to do in my life. One day, Moon, who loved you so much very dearly, will go in life the be a beautiful, kind young woman. She will soar, see new things, do new things. She will go to college, get a career, and worship God at the fullest. I will be able to read the Bible more now that I'm leaving. And, while it may be extremely crazy, and wild... Moon, the girl who cares for you, and loves you, who loves making Moon hugs and making projects for yall, will become a mother someday. And that day will be sooner than you think. Moon, me, will have a child to care for. Someone who I hope will be kind and caring. Wether or not my child will be a athletic girl, a sweet boy, or anything, it will be okay. GOD IS BY MY SIDE. ❤️❤️❤️ I have a message to all of my friends. I love you guys, so dearly. Leaving you makes me cry, because I can't explain how much I treasure yall. You..... all are such blessings. Huge, God given blessings. I care for you guys so much so. And even in the future, I will love you guys as much as I love you now. I know by God that I will remember you not through by brain, but through my heart. I cherish you guys. I hope you pursue your dreams, and accomplish them. Because with God's glory, you can accomplish your dreams. But, if you don't get there, it will be okay. Because God is by your side. I know He is, in my heart. Just know that one day, I will see you guys again. Wether or not it be soon, or not, I will. Wether or not it be short or long, I will. Because I love you. I love you. MAY GOD BLESS YOU! ❤️ -Natalie
original projecct by @PeanutBug511
