Honestly, I’ve been thinking a lot about asking my mom if I could play VRChat again, but I’m so scared of how she’ll react. I miss my VRChat friends and family so much, and I hate not being able to be around them like before. It feels like I’ve lost a huge part of my life, and I just want that connection back. But every time I think about bringing it up, I freeze. I’m afraid she’ll just shut me down or think it’s a waste of time, like she doesn’t understand how important they are to me. I don’t know how to explain to her that my VRChat family is more than just people I talk to online. They’re the ones who really get me, who know what I’m going through and care about me. And without them, it feels like I’m missing the people who actually make me feel seen. I know she probably won’t understand that, though. It’s hard enough already to deal with everything, and I’m scared she’ll just make it worse if I ask. I don’t know if I can handle another rejection or having her make me feel like my feelings don’t matter. I just want to feel close to my friends and family again, and not being able to talk to them is driving me crazy. But I’m stuck between wanting to ask and being too scared of what she’ll say. I feel trapped, like I can’t even ask for the things that make me happy anymore.
