"Are you ok?" "Whats wrong?" "Why are you crying?" ...things people ask me about 5 times a day... ...and they probably won't keep asking for long... ...i hate lying... ...but ive never had to lie so much in my life... ...of course i'm not ok!!!... ...i'm crying out for help!!!... ... ...but i cant tell you the truth..can i?... ...no.. i dont feel i can... ...i cant explain my problem... ...not without offending someone... ...my problem..?... ...you actually...want to know....MY...problem..?... ...you actually.... ...care...?.... ...my problem... ..is... ..a secret... ...but one of them is... ..im being... ...what do you call it...?... ... .."bullied"..?.. ..is it...?.. ...something like that... ...i dont know... ...im not eating properly... ...if you even care... ...now ill have physical pain aswell!! ToT... ...but shhhhhh.. ...you cant telll anyone... ...its a secret.... ... ...your not ready to telll.... ...i had to lie to a teacher!!... ....no! I dont have hayfever!... ..my eyes arent just watery!!" ...these are real feelings!!... ...i'm a real person!...!...... ...talk to me!... ...why cant i talk to you..?... ...why wont you speak to.... ..me.. . . . . ...you find it so easy to talk to others.... ...why not.... ...me.?.. . . . ...is something wrong...?!... ...am i not good enough..?!... ...am i not... .."cool"... ..enough...?...
Nobody will probably even read this!!... T-T
