![am i worth it? [vent]](https://cdn2.scratch.mit.edu/get_image/project/1062106560_480x360.png)
anyone ages 0-13 please do not read this. i'm saying this for your own uhhh childhood innocence. i am breaking my own rule but... i do impulsive things sometimes. [look down if you're 14+] am i worth it? my friends hate me so do my parents so do my relatives so do probably the whole world so do you probably and i mean that's not a problem, i've been solitary most of my life. i really gotta raise it up a notch though. ... Perfect. That's what everyone expects. The gifted child who seemingly has no problems, always finds an oppurtunity to crack a bad joke, always has time to listen to everyone's problems, will try to help them if she can. The kid who always acts a bit distant a times. Who always has to obey everything within two seconds or else. Tries not to be the teacher's pet. To not go crazy. The only way to not give up completely is my fictional delusion of a drawing iPad. Am I worth it? Am I really having a crumbling mental health? Is it just me getting older? Or is it just me being overly attention-hungry? I don't know. I don't want to know. I want to meet my six-year old self again. At least she knew she was cared for.
[my rule still stands, please do not read unless you're fourteen or older] [btw this is just mostly me raging against my parents] My dad says I recieve too much attention. Compared to my cousin. I'm the one who should be hidden away. For him. Always him. I don't want to be near my cousin anymore. Mostly because I miss being cared for. Also partly because.. well.. Some of you probably know how dark my thoughts can go. If you don't know don't ask. It's better if you don't know. Do I receive too much attention? ... And then when I'm feeling lower than ever he comes along and asks me why I'm becoming so 'bad'. All I want is to vent to someone. Who'll actually listen. I think a therapist would be about nice. ... What year will things turn around?
