I mostly dunno how to act how I am. I'm so afraid of getting rejected and/or excluded from groups cause I sometimes feel like I'm always the weirdo. I've been told by friends of mine that I'm weird or I don't act the way I should or don't like the things I should like, and it's very hard for me to fit in. I mostly act differently when meeting someone new because I'm afraid of getting ignored. I'm very afraid that people won't like me the way I am. I can't even act the way I am with one of my bffs. I see that everyone in my classes act so differently, they like watching stuff on TikTok or just talking to they're friends, but I'm that kind of person. I like playing with plushies or playing with legos, I like watching kidish shows on Netflix, I don't even have a phone! I'm kind of the one who still acts like a 9 year old and still likes stuff for 8 year olds. I really want to just be myself, but its just so hard. . . Sorry if this wasn't what you were expecting I just really needed to get this out of my head. . .
Thank you guys for accepting me as who I am here in scratch, it has really helped me. . . irl I'm in too-many-thoughts-in-my-head mode. . .
